I'd rather masturbate than have sex with my boyfriend

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I started masturbating when I was four. I was sexually molested by my older brother from age 3 to 9. Thing is, I wasn't traumatized....I loved my encounters with him and I was heart broken when he moved away. I would play sick in order to have the house to myself all day. I would masturbate over and over and over. Sometimes I would have so many orgasms that my head would be spinning. These days I masturbate at least five times a day (usually more)and have absolutely no interest in sex with a partner. I occasionally give in and let him fuck me .......but I fantasize about masturbating and can't wait for it to be over so I can go in the bathroom and masturbate. It's particularly weird when I'm ovulating. My bf and I were at a restaurant last week and I had to make myself cum twice in the ladies room....Then, on the way home, thinking about what I had done at the restaurant was making me wet.....I actually made Nic sop at Wawa so I could go in the ladies room and cum. I'm slowly working on Nic......getting him into beating off......and I make him watch me masturbate everyday. I often fantasize about he and I masturbating together.....no touching (yeah, do not touch me when I'm trying to cum)I'm an RN in a county hospital. I love my baggy scrubs.....EASY ACCESS :O)I usually masturbate three or four times during my shift.......and often again while I'm driving home. I dread Nic wanting sex....but I yearn for him to watch me masturbate

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  • CDmale4fem
    6 years ago

    Sounds WONDERFUL, I wish I was your right or left hand.

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  • dereknor
    7 years ago

    sounds fine to me, you seems to totally enjoy your body and orgasms. You dont even need sex :) I dont see a problem with that. Masturbating together can be even better then sex

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  • Tempest-au
    7 years ago

    You're sexual development has been "shorted out" by your brother's abuse. I presume most of that abuse was masterbatory (I.e. He was touching you up, not trying to have sex with you). I also presume that your BF doesn't actually make you orgasm.

    You need to rewrite your sexuality. Perhaps get your BF to perform oral sex on you every night or something. I'd also see a psychiatrist. The longer this goes on, the less likely you will ever have a sexually fulfilling relationship with another person.

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  • yourmindisfuckedup
    7 years ago

    There is something seriously wrong with your brain!!

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