I count things
When I'm talking I stop from saying something I want to so that I can count the letters in the sentence, if it's not an even number I don't say it. I have made up "cheats" so that way I can still say what I want. Such as an "ED" will become a < with 2 lines slashed through it. "ER" becomse a slanted squiggly line with "ER" written on top, an "ES" is the same as an "ER" but with "ES" written on top instead, "ing" becomes an, "*" with a dot in the mddle, any double letter can be made a single letter with a giant "D" (standing for double) on top; for example "Bigger" becomes "Biger" as long as the "G" has a "D" around it. And if all of these tricks don't work I start the sentence with a Capital C (Standing for capital)-because I think the sentence should be started with a capital letter-but if i use the C i can't have any c's in the sentence, because the C in the beggining canceles out any other C's. If i can in the end say the sentence i must tap my hand against my leg and count under my breath "10, 20, 30, 40, 50, 60, 70, 80, 90, 100" but in a specic order, I have to tap my left leg just above my knee for the "10" then my right leg just above the knee for "20" then my left again but just below my hip for the "30", then my right leg again just below my hip for the "40", and continue this pattern until I reach 100. Then I have to trace with my finger on my left thigh, a 1 then on my right, a 0 with a D over it-standing for 100-then the process is over and starts when I want to speak again. But i only tap my leg and trace my finger when i'm in alone, if i'm in public I fear people will see me and make fun of me so i shake my leg in the same places very subtly and in the same patterns. And none of this is done on paper but I write it out in my mind and picture it.
Also, I am superstitiuose so I don't step on my cracks and if I do I have to scape the bottom of my shoes on the floor, and if i'm walking with someone and a pole or tree gets in the way and w have to seperate and meet on the other side again, I have to clench my teeth.
Well, can this be normal??