I care only what others think of me

Its been the only thing mattering to me for the past 15 years of my life, ever since I was a kid.

I recently falsely accused a girl I like of something I thought she meant but I think it was miscommunication because we don't have the same native language. After it was resolved I feel crushed that now she sees how I am paranoid and defensive and not as perfect as I would want to be seen as.

I feel depressed now even though I should only be focused on rebuilding trust and feeling bad for the hurt I caused her.

How do I let this part of myself go so I don't live a life consumed with narcissism and alone?

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  • Ummitsme

    Perhaps you would be well served reading the book, "The Subtle Art of Not Giving a Fuck", by Mark Manson.

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    • Thank you, I've heard good things I'll see if they sell it here

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