I [can't] luv myself, i want you to luv me.........
I am f, 32 y/o in a wheelchair. I love having my lap stroked/rubbed, it makes my legs numb & my eyes go funny. Like how a cat's do when they're pleased. That means all the pain & stiffness I usually get goes. & I get a throb down my legs. Feels great. I only had this done once, & when I think that it's unlikely to happen again I could cry, & I have.
I live in a care home, which is very good, but I can't reach my poor, neglected mimzy myself, & there are things staff just won't do. I've since met someone online who does this for me (while role-playing as opposite sex), who thinks it's quite funny that they can get me off. is it normal that I crave this so much I cry, & that I can get off on even the thought. Oh God!!