I can't have short nails because i picture gruesome things happening
All my life, I have never been interested or liked the look of long nails (I'm female). It just didn't work for me. This wasn't really an issue, because then I could just cut my nails. Simple, right? However, whenever I had short nails, my mind would keep visualizing and feeling the sensation of my nails being ripped off and it hurting like hell. I can't stop myself from picturing it. It makes me want to curl my hands into fists and put pressure on each nail, since it makes me feel like the nails can't be pulled off if they're pressed down. This impulsive vision really freaks me out, and it drives me insane. It can lead to me crying, screaming in frustration, or just not being able to stretch my fingers out. Any ideas on what to help me? (While writing this [just thinking about it] caused me to have to constantly ball my hands into fists). Am I going crazy?