I can't control my thoughts
My brain is annoying me, and it has been for a long, long time.
The way I think, my brain is always grinding and thinking in the background, even when I block it out. It's like a constant droning sea of thoughts, even when I don't want them. When I focus on them though, it's basically like my brain is thinking through all the possible routes / paths I could take.
I can't fucking stop it, I haven't been able for 13 years of my life and am 25 now.
I don't understand what my brain is up to, and frankly, I'm not sure what to make of it, what to make of this web of racing, always active thoughts.