I can't believe this is my life.

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My question is this: has anyone else done something totally against their personal beliefs, values, morals, etc. and instead of feeling guilt or depression felt a sense of unrealness or numbness, almost as if the event never happened? And also, if you felt trapped in a situation that led you to go against your morals, how did you get out of it?

I feel terrible when I do something against my morals. 6
It feels unreal to me and I feel numb. 8
I alternate between numbness and feeling terrible. 15
I don't care about morals or am fine with going against them. 5
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  • dappled
    11 years ago

    A few times, yeah. What immediately springs to mind is that I cheated on someone, I stole some paper from work, I gossiped about someone and I lied about something for no good reason. Three out of four of those, I got found out, although was never confronted or punished (which makes it worse, knowing that people know but didn't say anything). The other (stealing the paper), I'd like to say I have regrets or that I suffered in some way but I don't and didn't. I'm technically a thief and theft is not what I think people should be doing but I didn't care and don't care. If I wanted to justify it, I'd point to several thousand hours of unpaid overtime and that my employer got away lightly and that it's a bit of give and take. It doesn't wash, though. It's still theft because it wasn't agreed. If I'm honest, I don't care as much as I wish I did.

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  • Anonymous Post Author
    11 years ago

    Thanks for your reply

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