I believe this is my fault

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I fell asleep in the back of my brothers car after the dreadfull flight from France to the U.S.A my two sisters stayed awake and my brother drove we were on our way to my new college Harvard and I start to dream and I'm in a bank and some guy runs in and robs the place then shoots me in the chest. I wake up, I realize quickly what happened... we got in a car crash and my brother had shielded me saving my life a second car speeds towards us, the world slows down, i hear my heart pound, feel blood being pumped. My sister then is in front of me on the ground dead just like my brother my younger sister has a wide gash in her head. I wake up again after falling unconsiouse and I'm in a hospital next to my sister who needed 83 stitches she was waiting for me to wake up and when I saw only her I started crying. She asks me why I'm crying and i tell her I should be dead not my brother and sister and that I caused the crash I should be dead, me not them. I ask this publically because the guilt is killing me. Do you think it's my fault my brother and sister are dead?

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  • moomus
    13 years ago

    No, that was shit luck, u can't blame yourself for that

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  • chrissa114
    13 years ago

    No, Its not your fault. There was nothing you could have done, I'm so sad for you having to go through that. Just know, you did nothing wrong.

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  • starkitty
    13 years ago

    awww....its okay! they saved you because they want you to be happy...the best way to thank them is to do so.

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  • lesbiangirl14
    13 years ago

    dont blame urself ok if u would have died instead ur brother would probably be blaming himself dont ever blame urself thing do happen for a reason

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  • Theta_Sigma
    13 years ago

    How could you possibly have affected that? You weren't driving. It wasn't the dream, because dreams don't affect the real world.

    It's normal to feel guilt after the death of a loved one, even in situations where you have to do mental contortions to find a way to blame yourself. I'm not sure why this is...maybe taking responsibility, painful as it is, makes us feel in control, and the idea that something like that was completely out of our control and we could lose someone else that way and there's nothing we can do to prevent it is just too scary.

    This is something called survivor's guilt. You feel guilty because you lived, but you didn't do anything wrong, and you didn't cause it.

    I hope you can manage to let go of your guilt. Maybe you should try going to therapy. You went through something really terrible, and it's going to take a lot of time to heal.

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  • Rachel888
    13 years ago

    Wtf?

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