I ask myself ?
Is it normal? That I'm 21 and worry about the world. I worry that I'll never have any friends and that I'll live to regret anything. I feel overwhelmed with the world. Never had anyone, worried no one will want me cause of it. I'm very shy and find it hard to put myself out there. I go out and when I see guys I find it hard to look even with normal people, making eye contact is hard. But I look at guys and ask myself 'is he the one? Could I be with him? Will I spent my life with him' I'm sick of waiting for life to flow, but I need to but how??
I even do it for normal people cause I'm so desperate for friends 'could we be friends? Is she like me?' I ask myself, paint a picture in my head. It's driving me daft.
When someone talks to me though I can talk and it boosts my confidence a lot.
Just seem to have lost it all. I can't go to new groups on my own I worry and the thoughts overwhelm me.