I am the most miserable teenaged girl in america?

52% Normal
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I take 4 college classes and I work 3 jobs. My only respite from a constant life of studying and working is my boyfriend and my cigarettes. I quit drugs and weed and even alcohol (because it will lead to drugs and weed) because I want to join the military soon. I try to exercise and diet, but it's a struggle.

So I can't help but look at these photos of these young girls my age who have the freedoms of an adult with the happiness of a child. I leaf through facebook albums and they're all hugging their friends at their sweet 16 birthday parties, driving middle-class cars, and going on cruises. They all go to hot spots (here, its ocean city, a beach and a carnival about 150 miles away) with their friends at 15, 16, 17 years of age.

As for me, I haven't had a birthday celebration since I was 5. I've grown to hate myself as I grew up because my parents did. I guess I wasn't a fun toy anymore. I have faced 10 years of physical abuse, and every day I deal with verbal abuse. I was also raped numerous times by strangers and even people called 'friends' who used me for my body without my consent and never spared me a passing glance, again.

Now, I am a freshman in college, I am 17, and mommy has to cart me back and forth to the campus in her car, because I pay rent, and tuition, and the 3 jobs I work barely keep my head above water. I am nowhere close to coming to affording for Driver's Ed, insurance, and a car. I can't afford anything. So I sit and do nothing, really. I also can't afford to look decent. I haven't spent a red cent on my appearance since my freshman yr in high school.

Is It Normal to have such a miserable life and feel this miserable at my age? Thanks.

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Based on 71 votes (37 yes)
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  • anya07
    13 years ago

    I would say not the most miserable but the most clever and strong.be proud of yourself,you face such difficulties in life at the age of 17 that you friends cant even imagine.Its your destiny but I really respect you for struggling.Dont worry those who party all day round will have nothing at the age of 30 btu you will have a succesful career beautiful marriage and memorable past which you can be proud of.I am 19,I dont go out,party,have fun not because i dont like it just because I work hard to realize my dream and build a career.

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  • b454
    13 years ago

    Hang in there girl. Don't hate yourself. I was miserable for different reasons and now that I'm 30 I wish I could go back and change my attitude but I can't. I still strtuggle with money and all that crap, but its not so bad. I know things won't always be this way. You just have to hang in there even if you don't want to. We women are tough!we can handle it!

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  • Echoes
    13 years ago

    ^^ great post, I totally agree.

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  • huBelial
    13 years ago

    I wish you the best of luck in your future.

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  • SeverusFan23
    11 years ago

    Saying you're the most miserable is a horrible thing to say. I've learned that even though i don't have it completely ideal, someone will always have it worse than me. Stop being full of yourself. -_-

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  • vanessadawson
    13 years ago

    Just remember there's ALOT of other people in the world that have it way worse than you. So just be patient

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    • MariaHx
      11 years ago

      This was 2 years ago but in what way does this justify suffering? Someone has it worse than you so shut up and deal with it? I don't think any amount of suffering is okay and you should be able to talk about it. I know that's probably not what you meant by it but from my perspective that's basically what you said. In no way do I think thinking knowing other people are more miserable than you are is helpful, that just makes you push aside your own problems and think your weak.

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  • fartsarefunny
    13 years ago

    being a teenager blows, it will get better eventually. I think everyone's life sucks when they are that age...I know mine did. I can't relate to your work situation at your age, but I can relate to the feelings of inadequacy towards my peers. I went to high school with kids who could always afford the most expensive kinds of clothes, bags, haircuts, and going on cruises every spring break. I never got to do these things cause I wasn't in the "in crowd" and my parents didn't let me go anywhere besides the mall. It sucked but as I got older the feelings sucked less. The same will happen with you.

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  • cocadude09
    13 years ago

    Don't worry about all the other girls just worry about yourself if you just spend your time looking at pics on Facebook your gonna be more depress enjoy the little things in life at lest your getting an education and actually doing something with your life

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  • Yesurlifeisnormal:)
    13 years ago

    I'd say it is but when you get out of college and get your full time job you will have it easy because you have gone through some tough stuff! Good luck

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  • unique-nobody
    13 years ago

    I consider this normal... because this is also what I have to deal with. I always thought I was the most miserable person, and still do...

    But it isn't normal - atleast it shouldn't be.

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