I am so lonely
I'm in my mid 20s, I have no friends, I have a job that pays well but I hate it, nobody at work likes me or wants to talk to me, I hate being stuck in a room for 8 hours every day, since it's in New York City on my break I just go outside and walk around the streets, I love wandering around watching people doing whatever and the sights and sounds of the city. I'm shy but I feel comfortable when I can fit into a crowd. I've never had a girlfriend but it never bothered me until I started working in the city. I see so many beautiful women every day on the city streets and on my commute to work and back home (I take the train and subway) that I can't help but feel physical pain for not being able to have a relationship with anyone. But I also feel terrible because I think I'm too boring and lame. There is nothing interesting about me. I do personally feel like a failure. I have no idea what I would ever talk about to any girl if she was my girlfriend. I'm also short and I feel insecure about that.