I always find an excuse to be unhappy.
It's as if I'm never completely satisfied. I long to live a life in which I feel content for a full 24 hours. I long to make people around me happy, being my positive energy the source of their smiles. I've gone through depression a lot of times before and now that I'm better, I feel as though there's still something to feel sad about.
The past won't ever change. The future can, but sometimes being present is too challenging.
Been to therapists, psychologist, rehab, read self-help books. I've got it all, even more than I deserve.
I can't be fully happy. and I can't forgive myself for that. They say happiness is a recollection of good moments, but I've permanently felt that my happiness never lasts more than a couple of minutes. Hours max.
Is this normal?