I’m a bad person and i’m aware of it. does that make me worse?

If you’re a bad person then why don’t you just build a secret hideout in a volcano and get a fluffy cat to stroke while plotting your evil plans?

You don't have to accept that this is just how you are and you're doomed to constantly piss people off with your obnoxious behaviour.

I guess from other things you say that you're in your teens. That's a difficult period in most people's lives, when hormones and trying to figure out who you really are can make it very difficult to deal with other people and life in general in a sane way.

You've recognised that you sometimes behave like a dick, and that's a big step forward. Lots of assholes never gain the insight necessary to recognise that most of their problems are due to their own attitudes, and they instead insist on blaming others for everything that goes wrong in their life.

Only a saint would never be cruel, irrational, obnoxious, phoney or lazy. Most people are all of those things now and then.

I suggest you stop being so hard on yourself, recognise that you are capable of behaving in ways that are less difficult for others to deal with (which only creates more problems for yourself), and make a habit of mentally counting to ten when you feel the urge to say or do something dickish rising in yourself. Learning that a genuine apology for things you come to regret saying or doing is not a sign of weakness would also be a step forward, and it might help you to act more decently when a similar situation arises in future.

There's no such thing as a bad person. Only bad decisions.

The fact that you regret it means you are not a bad person. You just are in a bad mood sometimes

I mean at least you're aware of it right I don't see how it makesyou worse. In my opinion it would be worse if you weren't aware BC then you'd be either sociopath or psychopath

Yes it is worse if you're aware of it because you know you act like an ass yet do nothing to change.

I feel the same I didn’t give a poor lady some money pray for me guys

So stop being an asshole.

Would it make any difference to understand why you are like this or why you have become like this?

...Nobody else is going to call it out? Nobody? Ok, I guess I will.

You are a fake. Not in the way you are trying to indirectly brag about, and I'll put money on your mother calling you "fake" in the same way I believe you are.

You're bored and uninteresting. You have too much time on your hands and instead of actually going out and doing something you're spending all this spare time trying to convince yourself you're interesting instead of actually going out and putting the work in to be interesting.

Something I noticed in your post is that you refer to your behaviours solely with your family, there's no mention of friends, social life, etc, which makes me believe that as I mentioned above, you're just bored and use your free time to convince yourself you're interesting because you don't use your time to do interesting things.

You're fake because you want to pretend you're all these things but in actuality you're not, you're just bored and don't push yourself out into the world like adults have to. You're stuck in your teenage angst stages (or possibly are still a teen). That's why you're fake.

If you can't change yourself, you should try talking to a therapist.

I would'nt think so!

fam. listen. you need to change
not for me, or any other fucking stupid person, ok. if you realise you are a bad person, that immediately means you can be good, and somewhere inside, YOU WANT TO BE GOOD. fuck everyone else, ok?? FUCK EM. be the best you can, for yourself, so that you can be happy

oh, and btw, Karma is a thing. a true powerful force.. so yeah. be good for your self, and the world might admire that sincerity

Can you give us some examples of what you do that's morally bad?