Humiliated by group of girls when i was 13

When I was in the 7th grade (13 years old) I was very active in sports. My mother didn't drive (health issues) and my dad worked late, so I would often have to wait for long periods of time after practice to be picked up (too far to walk). The cheerleaders, mostly 9th grade girls but a few 8th grade, practiced at the same time as the sports. They would often talk to me, tease me, and tell me how "cute" I was. One day in the spring, they (a group of 8 of the girls) grabbed me and pulled me into the girl's dressing/shower area. They then pulled me down to the floor and held me down. I was still wearing my track warm ups and they began to pull them down to my ankles, then pulled my underwear down. They laughed at my "little weiner" as the took turns touching it and rubbing on it with their hands. Of course, I could feel myself getting hard which just increased my embarrassment. Soon I was hard as a rock which seemed to make them more aggressive! Soon I shot a load of cum which they smeared on my face. They threatened to tell the entire school if I told on them. I faked being sick for a few days and when I got back to school, I think every kid in the school knew about my experience. Ended up transferring to another district. I pretty much hated girls from that point on, I now crave same gender sex, and often expose myself in very risky ways! Was that experience the "trigger" for my sexual preference and my risky behavior? I know I'm responsible for my own actions, just wonder if it's normal to respond to that experience as I have? No voting necessary, but would appreciate any comments. Also wondering if anyone else has a similar experience.

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  • gsully

    I was touched up at the age of 14 by a former coach. I wanted it and didn't want it so I can understand your predicament. I didn't cum but I had terrible guilt after it. 18 years later I told my wife for the first time, best thing that I ever did was share my story. what happened to you could happen to anyone so nothing to be ashamed of. just talk it out , you will feel much better

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    • Sadly, I think these kinds of incidents happen more than is reported. As seen in the news today, there are many types of sexual assault that go unreported, whether from fear, intimidation, embarrassment, any number if reasons. I wish I had had the courage to say something when it happened. Now, I just think it's too late.

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  • I realize that I was a victim, but was too embarrassed to tell my parents what had happened. Made up some bullshit story, and got the transfer ( my dad would have beat the shit out of me if he knew that I was afraid if a bunch of girls). I know I need professional help, just scared of telling that to anyone! I guess to me, it's easier to seek love and acceptance from a male sex partner and to risk being caught exposing myself (literally totally nude) than to seek "help"! I realize you're giving good advice, just can't get myself there! I cry a lot (that sure doesn't help, makes ne feel weak)!

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  • RoseIsabella

    You are a victim of sexual assault, and most likely suffer from PTSD. Have you ever sought help?

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