How do u know its enough ?

Hi everyone I have an issue with my marriage. I'm to a point where I just want to pack up and leave but I also want my marriage to work. I've been with my husband for three years and just got married last year. Our relationship hasn't been the greatest we had so many ups and downs but no of that matter bec I love him dearly. I believed he's was my one my love of my life. Lately things haven't been so great he lies to me alot now and I catch him in it almost 90%. Of the time. He tell me one thing and does another thing. And he has been coming home later n later every day. When I try to express my self and tell him how I'm feeling or what I'm thinking he always gets mad and starts yelling at me and then I yell and then he calls me a bitch. Or he always says it's my fault I over think I'm to one that gets mad ita my fault or he twist things and makes it seem like I hurt him .n at that time I start to feel like maybe it's me. Maybe I'm doing something wrong . ? So I tried a different approach I wrote a long letter explaining what I was upset about him coming home late him always gone always liening to me always calling me a bitch. And just really explained in detail. I left it on the counter for him to read when he got home of course late again he read the letter and came up to bed and apologize and said he sorry and didn't mean to make me feel this way. I thought maybe I got threw. Then the next day I got home he was already there in bed sleeping I was thinking maybe we can start spending time . Nope he went straight to his phone answered it and told me he will be back later He going to play soccer. My mom wants me to leave saying he's not treating me right. He already shows his anger hitting walls making holes in the walls kicking things and covering my mouth when I start yelling holding me down. He's already told me that he will be lost without me and he won't let me leave .. But he's never hit me physically . My mom keeps telling me to move away go stay with her n forget bout him. I need feedback form ppl that been in my situation.. should I just leave even tho I know I'll be hurt so much or is it normal for me thinking its my fault n I should stay?