How do i get over him?

So for privacy sake, all names mentioned are not the real names of the people in my story.

When I was in 7th grade, I met a boy named Chris. At first, the relationship started out like any other: simple, fun, and exciting. Dated for about a month, and then it ended. About a week later, we were back together. The story continues like that, for various amounts of time, breaking up, getting back together, etc etc, all the way until my Junior year in High School. Every now and then, we would both date other people, however we always found our way back to each other. But here it is now, it's the end of September, and I haven't been with him since the end of January this year. The thing is though, he's my first love, first EVERYTHING. Of course we each had our share in our problems. He would cheat, I would lie, we'd break up. I would cry. He'd yell. We'd both drink, or smoke our problems away. Yet we still loved each other unconditionally. Now I'm left with all the memories, and the faint reminder of the fact that I feel as though I will never love someone the same way EVER again. I'm trying currently to give this boy Kyle my everything like I did with Chris. However, I feel like I'm wasting his time sometimes.
I just want to forget Chris. Completely, and entirely. I'm tired of waking up in the middle of the night crying. Tired of seeing, hearing, and finding reminders around the town I live in, and around my house. I can't go, look, to do anything really, without something there that has a connection to him.
Has anyone ever seen the movie, "Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind?". It has Kirsten Dunst, Kate Winslet, and Jim Carey. Kate and Jim both have an operation done that erases specific memories. In the end though they try finding each other again because they realize why they were together in the first place. Is there any such operation? Because I want to be first in line.
I highly doubt finding myself wishing to remember.
I just want him gone, so I don't have to feel this anymore.
But I don't know how, and all I know is that my friends are sick of hearing me talk about it.
Help? But please be nice?

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Comments ( 6 )
  • pixie_dust

    ohh, puppy love

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  • iamandam

    "dating"...hmm.

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  • Cosmicgiggle

    I should edit too. Sorry about the spelling

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  • Cosmicgiggle

    Try cutting awayat this and resubmitting. Not toi minimize what you're saying at all, but you will find things that aren't as important as others and, thus work through much of it by simply editing. Plus, a shorter entry will probably warrent more and better responses . Good luck!

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  • Alaskaraven

    Everyone thinks they are in love with their first. And you two were in it for YEARS. I'm guessing this is going to take awhile- but you have to make an effort.

    I fell in love YEARS after thinking NEVER AGAIN. It's over. I'm cool w/ it now [never was my type, and the more I think about it, I think WHY? HOW?], but it took a few months. Yours will take a bit longer.

    Another argument for staying a virgin until marriage... would have made life so much easier. Hang in, keep busy, go out w/ friends...

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  • mimiali78

    I was going through a problem like this too, but trust me time will heal your heart. I was with this guy for 3 years and we had the same problem . we use to break up and get back, but now he acts like nothing happen between us. He lied to me and i felt hurt and now he acts like he didn't do anything. The things that help me be a stronger person is my family and friends. I think you should not talk about it and forget his name dont even say it. listen to music that talks about getting over someone. Also dance, smile tell your self that you forgot him even if you still feel like you miss him.Think about the times he hurt you so badly and REPEAT THE WORDS I HATE HIM. When you start to think about him try to get your self busy. laugh alot and meet new boys. Try to fall in love with someone that you know will take care of you.

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