How do i get over him?
So for privacy sake, all names mentioned are not the real names of the people in my story.
When I was in 7th grade, I met a boy named Chris. At first, the relationship started out like any other: simple, fun, and exciting. Dated for about a month, and then it ended. About a week later, we were back together. The story continues like that, for various amounts of time, breaking up, getting back together, etc etc, all the way until my Junior year in High School. Every now and then, we would both date other people, however we always found our way back to each other. But here it is now, it's the end of September, and I haven't been with him since the end of January this year. The thing is though, he's my first love, first EVERYTHING. Of course we each had our share in our problems. He would cheat, I would lie, we'd break up. I would cry. He'd yell. We'd both drink, or smoke our problems away. Yet we still loved each other unconditionally. Now I'm left with all the memories, and the faint reminder of the fact that I feel as though I will never love someone the same way EVER again. I'm trying currently to give this boy Kyle my everything like I did with Chris. However, I feel like I'm wasting his time sometimes.
I just want to forget Chris. Completely, and entirely. I'm tired of waking up in the middle of the night crying. Tired of seeing, hearing, and finding reminders around the town I live in, and around my house. I can't go, look, to do anything really, without something there that has a connection to him.
Has anyone ever seen the movie, "Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind?". It has Kirsten Dunst, Kate Winslet, and Jim Carey. Kate and Jim both have an operation done that erases specific memories. In the end though they try finding each other again because they realize why they were together in the first place. Is there any such operation? Because I want to be first in line.
I highly doubt finding myself wishing to remember.
I just want him gone, so I don't have to feel this anymore.
But I don't know how, and all I know is that my friends are sick of hearing me talk about it.
Help? But please be nice?