How close have you come to suicide?

I got out of the VA hospital after putting myself into a coma about two weeks ago or so. Not brag worthy at all. Just woke up with a catheter in my weener and a doctor telling me that i suffer from PTSD.

I think most people have vaguely considered what it would be like to do it, could imagine a situation where they would commit suicide, or have used it as hyperbole. I've never genuinely considered doing it.

No. Considering it by twenty five, however.

There was one night where I told myself that if a certain thing happened, my Dad kicking me out of the house, that I would for sure kill myself. As it turned out that actually happened. I called my best friend, told him what happened and said goodbye. He told me not to, told me to just sleep on. He tried to comfort me. Well my Dad never actually ended up kicking me out of the house, he just threatened to and made me back my bags. After I unpacked, I went to sleep. The next few days were just awful. It's bad enough that I had a lot of stress from school, but then I had to deal with anxiety at home.

Anyways, that was the only time that I seriously ever thought of killing myself. I was in a very dark place and I won't forget how I saw the world from that perspective. Although to be honest, I'm not even so sure how I would've done it. A noose was the option I was going to go with.

A few years ago I was getting stoned in preparation of hanging myself but I got a call that stopped me, nothing much, just my mum saying she was in the area and wondered if I wanted to get some food, I realised I couldn't do it to my family

That was a dark time in my life, I'm past it but I admit sometimes at night when I'm trying to sleep I start thinking about how I've fucked up my life and put myself in the situation I'm in now and how far behind and inexperienced I am in my life and the thought surfaces, that's all it is though, a fleeting thought, it won't happen

I am back from the dead…ha ha ha…oh wait, I guess I'm still here. Seriously, who did not pick the "I have committed suicide" option? That just made my day.

I actually shot myself once in a drug-induced suicidal fugue. Lucky for me it just glanced off my bra and I got a flesh would to my ribcage and my arm...I was taking various medications which had very bad results. All legal drugs but bad combination. It took a few months for me to feel "normal" after. I was in a mental hospital for a week and I only started feeling better when I got off the drugs and on the right antidepressant. In my case it was 100% the drugs which made me suicidal. SO don't be too judgmental about people who have tried it or done it, you cant know the real reason or if they were rational or in control at all.

I was drafting a suicide note in my head. Then, I remembered all the people I need to prove wrong.

Got as far as writing a suicide note, once.

You'd be surprised how close I was at one point. But then I thought about my family and friends.

Made a full mental recovery :)