How big should my anus be?

I recently sat on a Stair banistar and measured my anus afterwards it was aprox 15 cm accross Is this normal?

I can stretch my anus to 35 cm with both hands with which I exert maximum pressure to tear and rend my asshole wider and wider...

I like feeling the wind wooosh in and out, however I can no longer sit on an ordinary chair without jizzing from my prolapsed anus.

Also it bleeds alot when I double fist it bro.

My favourite hobby is to get a jam jar or coffee jar wrap my anus around it (by sitting on it), tighten my sphincter muscles whilst lifting it and then smash it by tightening my asshole as much as possible. It is quite exhilirating although there is a substantial amount of blood and I sometimes pass out. Also shitting glass for months afterwards brings tears to my eyes... hence it is a yearly special "treat" if you will for my prolapsed anus.

My ultimate dream is to fit my head inside my anus and I have been training for 13 years to do so. I saw the picture on the internet I do hope it is real as I hope to achieve full head up my asshole status and from there I can die a happy man.

Another goal is to take 2 horses balls deep inside my anus... I already took one horse balls deep, but now I feel I am wide enough to take two. I can just imagine the glee afterwards as my prolapsed, bloody and ragged anus hangs out of my asshole dragging along the stable floor. true bliss. I may even achieve intestinal bleeding and/or intestinal prolapse... I may even shit out my own intestine! what a glorious way to go!

If I survive that I may sneak to the local zoo and take an elephant.. or two.

I want to be split in two from my anus up!

Is it normal?