Hope is futile.
Hope is eventually futile. Life is futile. You don't get out alive. There are temporary happy things. There are temporary good times. But, hope is futile. I need a dose of denial. Education amnesia would be a excellent. I've learned too much.
Depressing conclusion. Ho hum. I accept this. The rest of my life? I don't care. I get sick of the fake optimistic daffodil people that think everything ends like a happy Hollywood movie. Nope.