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Okay, so I've never been happy with my appearance. Sometimes I am, but most of the time I'm not. As of January of this year, I said it was time to really get serious about weight loss. I bought a treadmill, and I started lifting weights. Exercising felt great! I also changed my diet.
I started out around 150lbs (I'm about 5'8", female).
I seemed to be toning up, but I wasn't losing any weight. People kept telling me it was muscle mass. Well that was fine, but I actually wanted to LOSE weight.
So I tried Hydroxicut. OMG, taht stuff is amazing! The pounds melted away! I was a little moody on it, but I was so friggin happy about the weight loss. I dropped like 10 pounds!
I then went through some major STRESS, and I lost another 10 pounds. I couldn't eat though, so it really wan't healthy.
I finally met my goal of reaching the 120s. I was so frggin happy. I lost 25 lbs and I looked SO much better. People were like, "wow you've lost weight!" and some eeven said I'm too skinny.
Now here's the thing, part of me thinks I look great, part of me sees I'm a little thin, and then theres still this part of me that's like, "lose weight, you fat piece of crap!" and so I'm still trying to lose more. I hate it cause I know I'm not fat, but I keep seeing it, and I'm like I gotta lose more. Is it normal to be addicted to weight loss? I'm still not eating much, and I get mad at myself if I don't work out. Oh yeah, I've been off the Hydroxicut for a month now (they took it off the market, due to a recall).
I sometimes feel like I'm losing my mind!

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  • bmcmindscape
    14 years ago

    you are border line anorexic so i think maybe you should eat a hamburger and throw away your mirrors or you will die

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  • Fartyr
    13 years ago

    Take it from someone who's suffered from eating disorders for the past 18 years, you are heading STRAIGHT into that territory. Try to be happy with your body image or it will F#CK up your life, looks, social life, mind, and family forever and ever.

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  • LoveYouBabe
    13 years ago

    I say stop losing weight your perfect where you are.

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  • rebel2010
    14 years ago

    Do what you are happy with.

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  • asthenia
    14 years ago

    I'm glad to see you're doing better. I tend to have a lot of friends who want to look like me, I always encourage people to look healthy.

    I was anorexic for quite a few years, and I'm still suffering consequences from it 3 years later, even though I've fully recovered.

    Though you're doing well, you might want to talk to a therapist. :] Best of luck.

    You're beautiful!

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  • BlackPixy13
    14 years ago

    Try looking at pictures of girls that look like you and tell yourself how beautiful they look. Looking like another beautiful girl is a great ego boost.

    You could also try focusing on another part of your body. I've become obsessed with changing my hair. Having the same hairstyle day to day kills me and I want to cut or dye it at least once a month, but it's far more healthy than worrying about my weight. And when I can't change my hair for some reason, I mess with my cloths and make new ones.

    Also, finding cloths that flatter your body type can be great. You look a lot better. I'm an hourglass shape and when I wear a baggy shirt I look awful, so I get a cool belt to wear at my waist and I look so much better. And I have olive skin so I need to be in the sun a lot or else my skin looks green and yellow. Finding out these things about yourself and learning what to wear with it will change both the way you look at yourself and how others look at you.

    Find a friend who will honestly tell you whether you look good or not. If the person tells you you look good in everything you wear and you wear something you don't look good in, it will only wind up embarrassing you and you'll feel worse.

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    • Anonymous Post Author
      14 years ago

      Thanks so much for the advice! Those are great ideas! I have been changing my hair around, so yeah it's a pretty good distraction for sure. I'm certainly a lot healthier now...and people say I look much better!

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  • ickleloulou
    14 years ago

    you have problems with your body image and you are looking for the perfect figure. does not exist hun. you will end up with and unhealthy relationship with food/eating disorder.people say you look good so believe them. I am speaking from years of experiance. once you start it's hard to stop.

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    • Anonymous Post Author
      14 years ago

      Thanx. I am doing a lot better now. My weight is up, and people think I look healthier... though deep down inside I'm not happy with my looks, but at least I'm healthier now so I guess that's what matters most.

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  • rainbowsarebeautiful
    14 years ago

    i totally understand... that stuff IS great! haha, but it doesn't matter if you lose all the weight and your still not happy with yourself. coz the real goal is loving your body isn't it? funnily enough i've felt most overweight when i was actually underweight... it doesn't matter what you weight, only how you feel :)only eat what you know is best for your body, ask yourself this before you take a bite..

    "is this filled with natural vitamins and minerals that are going to make me feel amazing? or is this pretend manufactured food that is going to make me feel guilty and awful? am I eating to fuel my body? or to fuel my emotions?.."

    only do what you know is best for you :)

    and when you hear that voice telling you your fat, tell it to f*** off! and that your absolutely beautiful! you wouldn't take that from someone else, so why should you take it from yourself!

    good luck gorgeous

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    • Anonymous Post Author
      14 years ago

      Thanks so much! :) I'm doing better now. Actually eating healthy, and I seem to be at a healthy weight. I still feel fat, but lots of people have been asking me if I'm losing weight, so it makes me feel better. Thanks again!

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  • egigglez13
    14 years ago

    it appears dat ur border line bulima/anorexic get help b4 dis turns into them

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