Help! doom right around the freaking corner :o
Yeah this is probably it. Reaching out to strangers on a blog, I'm sinking real fast huh..
Anyways, still going to try. Help me out guys, here's the deal:
K, this sh*t started SIX months ago...I walk out of a class, and a pretty girl smiles at me for no reason. "Niiice! Pretty girl smiled at me, time to Flirt/Harass/PrepareForMaceInEyes!!" should've been my reaction, right? Instead, I just walk away, since my mind was pre-occupied with the impending semester finals...or so was my excuse for not smiling back...:/
Semester break starts, have no recollection of the smile until next semester, when I walk into her again at the cafeteria. This time, she avoids my glance, and plays the awkward card.
K, here's the thing. I've been doing this sh*t FOREVER, have NEVER kept a relationship with anyone of the fairer gender. Why? beats me..oh and it's nothing to do with sexual orientation, I'm crazy about girls. Anyhooo, the girl won't smile at me anymore, and for the very first time in my life, I felt like sh*t because of it :S
Soooo, I got tired of this repeating cycle of my never being able to smile back at girls, and ended up doing something impulsive. Impulsive as in, tried the reefer with a friend for the very first time 2 weeks back.
The high didn't get rid of her smile stuck in my head, but it did rob me of my willingness to interact with the rest of the f**king world.
Help? HELP. The guy keeps telling me that I'll be back to who I was. Will I? HELP...what should I do about the girl? And the high, has it changed me forever??