Having sex and a serious relationship with my cousin.

It may be wierd but I'm still having feelings about him. Me and my cousin. Barely met like I'd say 3 years ago. 2 years he stayed with my family. And the last year he moved to be on his own. Well one day I guess we got into it because we'll we were on drugs for it was a party night. Well a couple weeks after that I ended up finding out i was pregnant, By him and we'll yea I told him. But since I'm in a gang related position I had a miscarriage at 2 month. After that my cousin and I got a whole lot closer and our relationship got a lot more serious. Of course all of this was like just a secret in between me and him. Either I'd go out with him or he'd come in with me. After 3 weeks he asked me to move out with him and I did. But then I started to noticed that I was gonna get too hooked up on him and I knew that there wasn't gonna be a way for us to be together . Especially if we be cousins. So just last week I moved out and moved in with my homegirl. Since then pos we haven't seen each other pero we've talked.
He wants me back but I don't know what to do when I know that I do have feelings for him. Or I'm just already in love with him