Have you ever had an eating disoder

I have anorexia, but I relapse every so often. The first time it fully emerged was when I was, I think in my preteens. I lost allot of weight and it was when I was in the late 70's that my family started to take "action". My mother was beyond angry and upset about what the neighbors would think so she forced me to eat everything on my plate and monitored me for god knows how long. Eventually, I went back to somewhat "normal" eating habits. Then, in the summer of last year I had a relapse... Now, I'm better and I'm no longer not obsessing about my calorie intake, but I'm still thin. One of my main reasons to get better was because my doctor was getting up my ass about it, but I do wonder if I'll have another relapse....

Technically, yes, although maybe not what you'd consider as one. I stopped eating as a toddler because of tonsillitis or something like that and I was five or six before I ate properly again. I was severely underweight. Didn't help that I was faddy too.

What makes you think I've recovered?

Nope.

I am currently recovering from anorexia. There was a point in time where I would limit my calorie intake to between 600-700 calories a day, and walk/jog between 3-6 miles a day. Even though I weighed close to 80 pounds, I still thought I looked like I could lose weight. I never had a goal weight...I just wanted to disappear, if that makes sense. My eating disorder was a way of controlling my life, when otherwise I felt like I was out of control. There have been a lot of negative things happen to me in my life, but I don't want to specify here. Eventually I was admitted to a hospital, where I had to regain around 25 lbs over the course of 2 months. Living in that setting was very difficult for me and I was never once happy there, and I don't think it helped me at all mentally. In the two months following my discharge from the residency, I lost 10lbs. I still relapse, but I've never been as obsessed with my old eating habits as I was before I was admitted that first time. However, I've never been a normal eater since, I worry about my health deteriorating (ex. becoming infertile, getting osteoporosis at a young age or my heart failing) and I honestly believe that I have forgotten how to eat. I have hope that one day I will be a regular eater again, but for now it's very difficult. My motivation to recover is that I really would like to accomplish a lot in my life, and I also really would like to have my own children one day. I'm hoping to go to art school next year. When I was at 80lbs, my body had eaten away at my muscles so severely that I could not grip a pencil correctly, remember the day before, or flick a lighter. I forgot how to draw. Luckily with weight restoration, all of those abilities returned to me undamaged, except maybe for my memory which is still a bit hindered. I tell this to my eating disorder voice often: "How can you have your own life without doctors up your butt every week, let alone have kids or go to college, if you can't even fix yourself a bowl of cereal without freaking out/measuring everything exactly?"

Is eating a whole pie a disorder?

yes i am diabeets i can't have sugar

I don't think that it's possible for me. I love to eat!

Yes I have an obsession with getting bigger, it's called bigorexia and I have no intention of recovering from it.

I think a certain depression I went through has been the only time I've had an eating disorder. Lasted about two months, maybe three. Just had to force myself to eat as much as I could despite never having an appetite.

No but there was a time when I would barely eat due to...certain circumstances. It was a sign of another problem, not the problem itself.