Hating myself for not utilizing my full potential

I was just like that in high school. Eventually I just stopped being such a perfectionist and tried to chill out. My grades aren't as good, but maybe it's worth it not to go crazy. I would like to be able to be successful and motivated without being angry all the time, so I'm trying to figure out how to do that. I think if it bothers you, you should talk to a therapist, regardless of how common it is in other people. It's possible you could have a slight problem with depression or some other disorder that can be treated. It might seem like a cop out to get psychiatric help for something that seems manageable, but there's not really any good reason you should suffer more than you have to in order to be successful and get things done. You should probably exercise and eat healthy or at least get some sleep.

I've done a lot of research on how different proteins and food effects neurotransmitter synthesis in your brain, which effects sleep and mood and other things. If you can't sleep, I would recommend Irwin Natural's Power to Sleep PM. It is a natural supplement of herbs and proteins that helps sleep a lot. You can buy it otc at a health food store like sprouts or probably whole foods. In my experience, it works just as well if not better than a mild prescription sleep aid from a doctor/pharmacist. Usually it helps me sleep. If You still can't sleep, what helps me is gaba. I would recommend to rely more on the other sleep aid unless you really can't sleep. I don't use gaba often because some people say it can be addictive if you use it too often (I've never had a problem with this, though) and I only use it when I'm not tired at all. Gaba is an inhibitory neurotransmitter that decreases excitatory neurotransmitters like dopamine levels in your brain. Excitory neurotransmitters like dopamine are higher in the day when you're supposed to be most active. If you aren't tired when you sleep and feel like you should still be awake, but need to sleep, you could try it. It's completely natural and you can buy it otc at a health food store. 700mg works very well for me when I absolutely cannot sleep and my other sleep aids don't help enough. I wouldn't use sleep aids every night, though if you can help it. There's a slight chance with any sleep aid that your brain might become dependent on them if you rely on them every single night, but they're better than nothing if you really need something to help you sleep. As long as you don't use them every single night, I'm sure it would be fine.

Dude, you are a smart guy. I can tell by the way you write. I could almost feel your pain in your words. It seems you have much to say and you are confused. I'm empathic with your cause. I feel a similar feeling. If I could suggest something it would be "focus". It sounds like you're trying to do everything all at once, but nothing seems to be done "perfectly". Look, I know comments suck and sometimes they just make you feel more alone in the world, cause no one understand's really what's going on in your head. Anyway, you feel you have potential, this means you must really have it. That's why you can do many things and be good at them. But you want to be perfect right? My suggestion is: FOCUS in ONE thing. Decide what you want for your life and use all your will and potential to it. You will be the best. Forget the past, focus on the future, do what has to be done in the present. Do the OBVIOUS! Done!