Hard time growing up

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This is my first post. Please let me know if I can try anything that works better. There is a lot that I could say so I'll try to keep it to what feels the most relevant. Been mormon since I was a baby and now I've decided I'm atheist. When I was 12 my family moved from Oregon to Utah (happy valley utah). I've always hated utah and regretted we moved out of Oregon. I can never understand my own feelings and its like no one i talk too (my parents especially) really understands me. Even since moving to Utah I always feel weird awkward, and unhappy. Could count the truly happy moments on one hand. I just moved out and I'm attending college.n I hate school and I dont know what to do with my life. My room mates are some of the nicest people i've met so far. I have so many negative emotion i cant even begin to talk about them all. I've had nights where i cry/scream uncontrollably. One time I cut my own wrists. This behavior was completely out of the blue, I had never thought of doing it before. And its never crossed my mind to do it again. I dont know what I want. But I jut want to feel good.

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  • CoraCook
    9 years ago

    Utah has so many beautiful places to explore... that's what stood out for me. But anyway....growing up kind of sucks but it's great once you get there.

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  • thegypsysailor
    9 years ago

    Knuckle down and finish school. Then the whole world (and Oregon) is out there for you. There's absolutely no need to think at this age you must know what you want to do with your life; some don't figure it out until mid-life.
    Just get through school and you will have that accomplishment to feel good about. Then pack a bag and go where ever you like, and do whatever you please.
    Congrats on getting free of the religion thing, though. That is a HUGE accomplishment and will increase the quality of your life immensely.

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  • Lonely2
    9 years ago

    Youre starting to experience depression....try to go to counseling and talk to a professional about it..it can get worse......dont take this as there is something wrong with you...

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  • mlbryan44
    9 years ago

    Try sucking a man off and not just thinking of yourself. Bring pleasure to other men with your body and you will feel better.

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  • noid
    9 years ago

    I think things may get better in time. It's normal to have some of these down periods in life, unfortunately.

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  • Pika-girl
    9 years ago

    From what I've read, are you depressed? Because you felt like no one was there to understand what you were saying and you never liked Utah. You've also said that you've had very little happy moments and the only nicest people you've met are your roommates. Then you feel like cutting yourself, crying, and screaming as if you cannot control yourself.

    I guess it's normal. I know a few people who are like this. One of them is my sister, so I know exactly how it is.

    Just remember the happiest things in life and be positive. Maybe something good would happen to you. If you're negative, it will cause you to think negatively and do negative things.

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