Girl of my dreams is my best friend
Her name is Lisa, I met her in 8th grade. I was a new student and she was the only person who decided to talk to me. I was a real f*cking geek to say the least, but she didn't seem to care. She always made sure her friends were nice to me. Right off the bat I thought she was the most beautiful girl in the school. But I was going through some drama in my life at the time (that I don't want to go in to) and was severely depressed. So I talked to her about it. I found out that she was going through almost the same things (only a little worse). And she seemed as happy as can be. Over time she helped me get through it.
When we went to HS I got my own friends and we kind of went out seperate ways. Although we hung out with different people, we always found time for each other. I still thought she was the most beautiful girl in school, but I never thought about her in a sexual kind of way.
So it'd been about two years since I first met her. In that time, we helped each other out whenever we felt down. We even joked about how we would be the perfect couple if we were together. But we took it upon ourselves not to get involved with each other for fear of it not working out and thus ruining our friendship.
Everything was fine until one night. I had a dream about her. Don't worry, it's nothing sexual. We were about 8 years older and we were just...married. I was just sitting on a chair with her in my lap and I held her. Our hands locked, rings right next to each other, with her resting against me. Then I told her, "I love you so much." with her reply being, "I love you too."
I couldn't quite understand what brought it on, I NEVER thought about her in any kind of way other than as my friend. But for the next couple of weeks I had more dreams about her. (Still nothing sexual) Including coming in to the hospital to see her and get our newborn daughter. But then I suddenly started feeling something toward her. I would get a little annoyed every time her boyfriend came around. I still had a girlfriend, but I thought about Lisa the entire time. So I just told my gf, "I'm sorry, I can't be with you anymore. I'm hung up another girl and can't stop thinking about her. It'd be so disrespectful of me to keep going out with you while I think about her. I still love you, but....I can't explain how I feel. I hope you understand." She understood completely and help no grudges. We're still friends today. All my friends told me to just forget about it. I'm a teenager, you'll get over it.
Well it's been nine months since then, and not a day goes by where I don't think about her, write "I Love Lisa" on the mirror of my bathroom after a shower, or feel real weird every time I'm around her. I still feel the same way, so I gotta ask: Is it normal for me to suddenly fall for her and keep this feeling even though many months have passed? She's single now, but I can't gather the courage to ask her out. I really need advice if anybody has something useful to offer.