Get turned on by blood

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Ever since I was small I've always had a thing for blood. I still havent had sex because I feel like I'm weird. I want to do bdsm. But I want to get cut and I want pain lots of pain. I've always wondered about my desires. I've always wanted to draw someone in from a club. Have sex but then just slice their necks. Then just lay there smoking a blunt and taking pictures with my poloraid. I'm getting mental help (just saying) I hear a lot if things. Voices lots of them. I just want to see the fear in someone eyes. I love it. Ive been abused since I was small. Maybe thats why? I want pain but more than that I want to give pain. I enjoy cutting myself. Not like I'm emo but just to see my blood. So beautiful. Honestly I feel like this will one day come out to the public if I ever become a serial killer. I dont want to kill just anyone. I want to cause main in rapists molesters abusers. So they can feel what I felt.is this fucked normal?

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  • SlowRocket
    6 years ago

    Totally not normal

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  • Iwpimm
    6 years ago

    You say you do it because blood turns you on and then you continue to say it's beautiful. But then you change to you want pain but then it's because you want to give someone else pain. Then you end with you want to give pain to terrible ppl who deserve pain for abusing other ppl? Sort of all over the place..

    Seems to me like you are less sexual than you think and more angry or unjustified..

    Your past experiences are clouding out the joy and pleasure that can come from being close to someone and being intimate in sex. Bondage is something ppl usually get into, not start with before having any other experience. You sound like you resent other ppl now and as if you feel that you could never connect to and or trust another person to have light-hearted and more passion filled sex with to actually be able to enjoy your bdsm with a eager partner who can get to know you.

    Hopefully you can learn to move forward from past abuse like my wife did and look forward to meeting a special someone that will fill your heart with trust. It'd be nice if you could want bdsm for excitement and not because you crave hurting someone outside of a sexual connection.

    Blunts are terrible for you, it's 2017 get some clean glass for your bud and smoke it like you care.

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