Gay thoughts
i am straight but i always have fears that im like a gay. i like to wear girl clothes and imagine im a girl. i even insert things in my ass. it started out of curiosity. but i want to be manly and straight. i was sexually harassed when i was in nursery. a 9th standard senior made me suck his dick. later as i grew up, i got attracted to guys when i was till 6th standard though not sexually. i even liked being teased as a girl when i was in 4th standard. but i liked doing guys things. but i like girls and hate my somewhat feminine nature. and im not gay. i dont want guys. am i just like that? or is it a psychological problem due to the sexual abuse? i am fed up and depressed with these thoughts and feelings. iin? thanks