Female/female

I have had a sexual relationship with my cousin for years. We are both adults now. We are the same age. We are both married now. The thing is that I believe I love her. I love her and I am in love with her. Their is nothing that would make me happier than to set her up in her own apartment and pamper and take care of her. I think about doing this everyday. Noone has ever made me as happy as she does when I am with her. We started being intimate when we where very young and then she went down a different road then me in life.Now we are both married and long to be with one each other. I have to fight the feelings everyday to not pick her up and move to another state and leave our families. We both came from a weell to do family and our feelings for each other would not be acepted. We both are well educated and have done well finacially for oursevles. Should we leave our family behind and give into the love that has been growing between us since we were young or supress our feelings in hopes that they will one day die?