Feeling worthless over an expected result
In the past, I have had a thing for teachers.. Older women.. That type thing.
I was an attractive young girl at the time, but obviously got turned down.
When I hear of people having affairs and what not with their teachers it really saddens me because it makes me think I wasn't attractive enough, even though I was.
My mind gives me these delusions that I wasn't good looking or charming enough to tempt them, even though the real reason would have been because they were straight and married!
Is it normal for me to feel this way? :-(