Feeling neutral all the time, iin?
I always feel neutral. I have flickers here and there of sadness and happiness, with anger being the one thing I feel the strongest, but otherwise I feel barely anything (each day is about 95% neutral with the rest being flickers of emotion). I have felt like this for 4 years.
I keep trying to get myself to feel more happiness, but it's very temporary, lasting a few seconds at a time. I also have no motivation anymore, I hardly leave the house and have large gaps of memory missing. I can begin cleaning to occupy myself, but then I zone out and snap out of it to see my room either much messier or much cleaner than before, often hours later.
Everything I do is merely a distraction from this, I feel no excitement from the internet/reading/every other hobby and will forget it later.
is it normal to 'feel' this way all the time (though it's more of a lacking of feeling)?