Feeling insecure and know i shouldn't
I feel ugly like really unattractive, I look at myself in photos especially and I cant believe how bad I look, I'm not fat or anything I've a nice body I work out but my face just seems assymmetrical and ugly to me, but the thing is I've been on dates I've been in a casual relationship for half a year I've been called cute a couple times.. but I just DONT SEE IT !? I can remember multiple times I've flirted with girls and they flirted back I've had sex multiple times I've kissed girls but I'm so uncomfortable in my appearance I cannot see it right now I think I'm just straight up ugly man I dont get it why cant I see it, I know for a fact I'm not like hot hot but why have I been called cute it makes no sense I just feel so ugly but cant even tell if its accurate or not. I'm constantly checking my reflection in windows as I pass I'm always looking at myself in mirrors and it probably comes off as vain but it's the total opposite if I don't verify I look like an absolute troll every few hours I start to feel hideous.. idk man I just feel so confused that I dont know how to process it