Feeling high and low

I'm feeling high and low, sometimes feeling down, humiliated, and that makes me frown, and teasing is exhausting, when I'm teased I'm humble, I'm not proud of this feeling then the next day I'm back to being Australian acting patriotic. I'm not particularly obsessed with conformity, but I don't know what to be, where to stay in my personality. I'm certainly humble when I stop being normal, and when I say humble it's not a compliment. The way I feel humble at this is lowering myself, instead of being proud of this godforsaken life, it's not Australian to feel this way is it? Yet at the same time my roommate makes me humble. Not only that but I'm in all humiliation humbled by people who won't accept my norms, I could've been as normal as I was and the damage is done, that's not the pessimism talking, it's my disbelief in all beliefs I have these days, as scientists do this all the time and enjoy feeling humble, to me humble is not good, it's humiliation.