Feeling guilty, but what the fuck.

The cubicle next to me at work was just filled by a gay guy. I'm a homophobe, I know. It's just that gay people give me the creeps. For a lot of reasons. All of them sexual. I look to my right and start thinking of what this guy did last night. Probably what my wife did for me. I've asked my boss to move me to another spot. That request is still pending. With office politics being what they are, I realize that was not the thing to do. My boss seems a little disappointed with me. I am going to cancel that request. I like my job, feel lucky to have it, and I want to move up. I think I better grin and bear this one. I feel guilty about my homophobic feelings. I would never have a racist attitude if the man was black. So why this very bigoted feeling because the man is gay. He is an "out" gay person by the way. Not just a matter of speculation on my part. I guess it's normal to not be a racist yet hate (strong word but that's how I feel) gay men. I feel stuck, almost trapped by these evil feelings of mine. But these are normal feelings. Or are they?

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Comments ( 16 )
  • GreyWulfen

    Don't avoid him. Get in contact with him. Face your fears. See that he is just like anybody else.

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  • CrimsonDeadly

    I think you should take a good hard look at yourself and realize how petty you're being. The guy likes dick, that's his lifestyle... The same way you're lifestyle disables you from being racist.

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  • thegypsysailor

    Quite honestly, most who have such strong homophobic feelings, have them because subconsciously they fear that they themselves may be gay. By being in close proximity to gays, they are afraid that they may not be able to control their gay urges, and this makes them very, very uncomfortable, often blaming the gay person for their being uncomfortable.

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    • dirtybirdy

      Those who protest the loudest...

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      • thegypsysailor

        Indeed.

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  • VirgilManly

    Just suppose there are guys in the office who don't want to sit next to you because they find your wife butt ugly and the thought of having sex with her gives them the creeps. So they go to the boss and request to be moved.

    Yeah, that's what you look like. An idiot.

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  • Avant-Garde

    We often fear what is foreign to us. If you want to get over your fear, you should make a move to face it. Get to know him. If things don't work out, try to remember that he doesn't represent the entire gay population, much like how you don't represent the entire straight population. Good luck. :)

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  • teltrum

    You must be laughing so hard at the responses you got.

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  • mountain-man82

    It sounds to me like you are a bit scared of them and disgusted by them, which is not totally normal, but there are many that feel this way. Try not to think about him at work. Try to ignore that hes gay and focus on his work production. If you want to move up in life then thats something you need to overcome. I personally dont care what gay people do. It doesnt have any impact on my life, so why care?

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  • dirtybirdy

    Your story is gay. I won't read it.

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    • Johnnytherat

      Gayer than sucking a dudes dick under a rainbow while shitting out sparkles

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  • wistfulmaiden

    Despite what people like Sean Penn say--as if HE should talk--you dont have to agree with peoples sexual choices, you just have to tolerate him as a person. Its not evil of you to feel this way a lot of people especially men feel this way. Its normal to be repulsed by thinking about sex acts you think are nasty...so try not to think about it. At all. You wouldn't think about your parents doing it right, so look at it as a "just don't go there" mental scenario. Its possible that to gays, "normal" sex acts between men and women may seem just as gross!
    The fact that you feel guilty and took back your request shows youre at least willing to learn and deal with your problem.
    I have gay friends and it doesn't bother me at all but my husband is really homophobic. He doesn't hate them or want to harm them he just doesn't want to think about it or hang out with them. Which is fine.

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  • kini.mesi

    If I was your boss, I would fire you.

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  • alextsang08

    I would say, "HA GAYYYYYY", but that just seems immature.

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    • EccentricWeird

      It's spelled "GUAYYYYYYYYYYYEEEEEE"

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  • equitable75

    If the sexual acts is what you "picture" and bothers you Then just picture your co worker to have Ken doll parts, with really no parts just a cartoon body:) Try no to picture it silly! Try to find a positive aspect about the individual so this situation doesn't ruin your career

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