Feeling dreams
I have had this "problem" for a while where I will have sex dreams and feel every little bit of it, physically. I guess you can say that this is "weird" and I do find it strange too but I need to know what causes this. I tried searching online on dream websites, but could not find anything specific on this issue. I came across this website during my search after reconsidering posting this on yahoo answers. I don't want to reveal my identity.
Last night was awkward. I had multiple dreams of having sex with my cousin and I can feel EVERYTHING. I have never had sex in "real life" so you can only imagine how much this creeps me out. I have not seen my cousin for 5 years; last time I visited the motherland and we've been separated for almost 9 years now.
Most of you are probably thinking this is awkward and if you're one of these people just wanting to say that I'm weird and up-normal, then please leave this page now - I don't want to hear it and will not care about what you have to say.
In my culture, it's perfectly fine for people to marry their cousins and my cousin and I, even though we never were "in love", have always had these crazy sexual desires for one another, but we never acted on them, but they're always so darn obvious. His dad has been recently talking to my parents about us getting married. My cousin tried to commit suicide when I refused and I'm going back to the motherland in two months from now and I'm very uncomfortable about meeting him...
The dream I had last night was very unusual. I was on top of my cousin on some beach from dawn to dusk and we were just going at it. There are no images in my head of his face from the dream, but somehow I know it was him. I was getting cold in bed, even though it was really hot in my apartment last night, but I guess it's because I can feel my dreams and being naked on that beach probably caused that...I've always felt my dreams, especially those that are sexual, but none of them ever included my cousin; either a complete stranger just for the sake of banging or my previous boyfriend, that's it.
Sorry for the long post here, but my questions are basically as follows: Is it normal to feel one's dreams; that real and intense? How could I be feeling actual sex when I'm still a virgin? Could this be because I've been trying to suppress my feelings for my cousin since they are not welcomed in my adopted western culture? Does anyone else on here FEEL their dreams? Are you also in a state of control where you can change what happens next or just wake yourself up if you're having a nightmare, for example? Any answers in regards to these questions will be very appreciated.
No negative comments please. Save those for yourself as they are not necessary or beneficial to me. Thank you.