Fear of the past

In the october of 2017, i asked a girl younger to me by 5 years whether she is virgin or not and even added that other girls of that age are not usually virgin. I was stupid that time because despite being an innocent boy all those years since kid, why should i make such stupid question to a girl like that? I was just maybe trying to have some fun or just kinda tease. But i wouldn't have done any real sex even if she was ready. Sex was not my intention. I was maybe just trying to get her reaction. She got so angry, forwarded to her friend. Both against me. The another girl's dad scolded me over the phone. It was bad, obviously. I made the 1st girl clear so mant times,i had no bad intentions,and still she has to forward the screenshot?? After that,i lost my mind,talked trash about both girls to each other(shit,i was going deeper and deeper in the problems hole). I told both the girls through text, i had no bad intentions, and i even said sorry and later blocked with an angry text to both. But later, i scolded the another girl saying that it was my sister, and why would you let your dad scold my brother? It became like a text fight and ended. 9 months later, i became close with a girl.2-3 days later,i came to know she was very good friend of the 2 girls i had misunderstanding earlier. The new girl and i had some heart connection . So, i decided to apologize both the girls of past. The new girl made group chat of 4 and i apologized to them. But it went so bad. They scolded me very badly, said me i was characterless. Omg. I was so depressed and humiliated. I left the group chat. 2 weeks later, the new girl left me because she was just trying me(shit, she should have told me earlier). I got nothing. What i fear everyday is will the 2 girls of past ruin my reputation in society for asking about virginity? Will my parents come to know about that stupid misunderstanding?? Omg! Please help. Its been 10 months of the apology in group chat and its been 19 months of the actual misunderstanding. Still i am so afraid.. the girls are just 5 km away from my locality.

I haven't told this incident to anyone except 2 of my best friends because it shows me as the starter of misunderstanding. They told me i should forget everything and live life. They said i am worrying too much and they would never say to others about the misunderstanding to anyone. One person said me its been such long time,its useless to even recall the memory.

But whats happening to me till now? Do i need to change my daily life habits? I am still afraid of that past incident. I fear what if my parents know of this bitter past? Shit!

Its normal,and it will vanish with time 0
Its occupying my mind,i should talk with my parents 0
I should still find them and say sorry 0
I should forget the past 1
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Comments ( 6 )
  • We all stick our foot in our mouth sometimes. Let it go and move on.

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    • anonymoussuomynona

      Time and again, my mind thinks of negative things. I fear so much man. Please guide me.

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  • donteatstuffoffthesidewalk

    bitch be trippin

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  • leggs91200

    I would just cut contact with whoever is part of the group you pissed off. They may or may not try to start problems at some point (probably not, as it is now old news) but do not say or do anything to invite communication. Even an apology would e an invitation for trouble so let it go.

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    • anonymoussuomynona

      Ok thanks. Actually,i have more advantage if standard is concerned since i am much good looking,skilled, more knowledged than their boyfriends, but still i fear if they would ruin my social reputation one day because of the past. It was a bad past and experience which i would never like to see again,i am not a bad person at all.

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  • Cuntsiclestick

    Yeah, you and everyone involved were careless and immature. If they couldn't let it go, you should've let it go and vice versa. Holding on to the past is pointless. Move on with your life.

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