Fear of losing my mind

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So a few weeks ago, I smoked KB. It was really strong, and I hadn't smoked for a long time. No, I don't plan on doing it again, but this is what happened.
Long story short, I began completely forgetting where I was and what was happening moments ago. I kept blacking out as well. First question: Is that normal?
Now, it made me realize how afraid I am of losing control of my mind. Reality is scary enough because it's so undefined, let alone when your brain could possibly malfunction on you and distort the world around you. So I believe that fear has always been there, but it's out in the open now because of that experience. I sometimes think about movies I've seen. For example, "The Butterfly Effect." The character in that movie... He was completely alone and traveling in time through a crazy, messed up reality. It's just scary how life makes no sense, and it feels like at any moment, it could become completely strange. If something as crazy as life itself could happen, then something as crazy as that could happen too, right? The concept of eternity is involved with this fear as well. Hope that was clear enough. Second question: Is THAT normal?

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  • socioslut
    14 years ago

    Wow Wow Wow- you have virtually no reason to be concerned. One it sounds like your body isn't used to handling pot- and thats why you got so high you could not keep your eyes open. Second if it gave you such a vertigo effect then you may be allergic? Even if you are allergic it is certainly not going to kill you! If you are afraid of losing your mind I would suggest you stay away from all mind altering substances! Seems simple enough, as for any residual effects you are feeling it is most likely in your head. Furthermore the butterfly effect is a sci fi movie with virtually no base in reality. No matter how high you get you will not be able to literally transport yourself between times and realities. How old are you? Is this even a serious question. You can not base realistic fears on what you see in movies- that part my friend is not normal.

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    • [Old Memory]
      14 years ago

      Thanks for the advice. Well, I used to smoke less strong marijuana. I did that for a few years, so I found it very odd that it happened when I expected my body to be used to it. Again though, I hadn't done it for a long time, so I'm sure that's almost irrelevant.
      As for the movie reference, I was just making a comparison for the way I felt. I understand that the movies aren't real, but the position that the character was in is one that I feel best related to what I fear, which is loss of a sense of normalcy, memory, and a general sense of reality in life. I'm only 16 by the way.

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  • Scharfschützer
    11 years ago

    Smoke real weed you dumbass

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  • mittens4444
    12 years ago

    My first time ever smoking that fake weed (we called it K6 around here), the same thing happened to me. During my blackout periods, I would see geometric shapes, letters, numbers, and pictures all morphed together; flashing before my eyes. Soooo much other stuff happened as well, but that would take too much to try to explain. The craziest experience ever.

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  • Gidget
    13 years ago

    Your just having anxiety

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