Fear of heights- scared i may jump- anyone else?
When I was young I was never afraid of heights- I would go out on balconies 40+ floors up and lean over the edge. I would climb up to heights over 30 feet.
This has changed. Now I'm in my 30's and I feel sick to go on a balcony. I'm not afraid to fly or drive over bridges. It's when I'm in a situation where I have access to the side and could fall over. I actually feel like I can't trust myself, that I could have a mental lapse and just jump!
I have no desire to hurt myself at all, but even if I'm near a railing at any reasonable height, I'm terrified that I may just "bug out " and jump.
Zero fear of flying or standing right at the window at the heighest floors in any city. As long as it's not an open window, I'm totally fine.
Can anyone else relate????