Fatter than i look :/
Okay, so here's the deal. I weigh 17 stone the last time I checked, but I'm too scared to check again. The thing is, looking at me as a whole, I really don't look it. Looking at just my face, I actually pass as a normal sized girl as my weight doesn't show there. I've had people guess my weight before and I normally get 12 or 13 stone as the most popular guess. If I dare to tell them my real weight they are gasping in utter shock from it. Now, I know from my H cups that my boobs probably pay a big part in my weight, but even then, that's not five stone alone. I have friends who ARE 13 stone and are a great deal larger than me. What I dont get is WHY I dont look anything like my weight and why I've still got an hourglass figure, though to be fair, a few undesirable lumps and bumps are prominent along the way.
My obvious ability to be an attractive girl confuses me. I've never been skinny, but I'm not exactly uncomfortable with myself, I'd just like to lose whatever weight is necessary to lose the undesirable lumps. When I see my reflection I see a really attractive girl underneath and I know that if I lost some weight I'd be a sexually attractive girl, but until I've reached that desirable girl I want to be, the mere idea of ever trying anything sexual with anyone is just inconceivable to me, along with the idea that someone would actually want me as I am. Nomatter how much I try I never lose that weight, so I'm sort of stuck in limbo.
Can anyone else relate to ANY this?
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