Falling inlove with a gay. :'(

December 20,2011. That was our CLE Month & we had a little presentation about the birth of Jesus. After that presentation, I went to the room to check my friends out. What happened was, I saw something ( I forgot what the name was ) that would make me look a bride so I wore it & roomed around the room. Me & my friends started to laugh so hard & decided to look for a groom. Well, it was just for fun though. There we're 4 gays ( 6 to be exact ) in our room & they we're like the best of friends. One of them went to the room & because I wasn't able to look for my groom, I decided to pick him/her rather to be my groom. We took alot of pictures but really, I had no feelings for him at that time at all. And then, when I came home & logged on in my facebook, One of my friends tagged in me in one of her pictures which was the wedding thingy. At first, I was still laughing & tries to ignore how we looked like. but then, weeks passed & I still can't get over with that picture. I even downloaded it on my phone. I kept on staring at it EVERY SINGLE NIGHT. Until months passed, I can't help myself from falling inlove with him. Sometimes, I even get to ask myself like " Geez, Why HIM?! I mean, HER? He's GAY. There's like, A MILLION of guys in the world. " But really, A gay like him is very rare. I even hug him & like, He don't care at all. Well, what do you expect, He's GAY. He won't really care at all. Every night, I keep on thinking about him, I keep on having those crazy imaginations like, He'll realized He's not gay & like He's going to ask me on a date and so whatever. :( Phew, I have never imagined that loving a gay was this hard. Is it normal? :| :\