Excessively overthinking things and worrying i've gone insane.

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I have this really bad fear that maybe I'm not in reality/have gone insane. It comes and goes but is usually there to flare up every day at least once. I go to a therapist and she hasn't said I'm that bad off, to the best of my knowledge. I used to (and still sorta do) have these worries about being possessed (which I know is bull) that I can't shake. I also have this worry that I'm going to lose control of myself or go insane, and I worry that I'm insane already and just don't know it but... Agh. I don't like sleeping because I'm afraid I'll like get stuck in a dream. But I really just don't know because I know it's all bullsh*t but I can't stop worrying about this kind of stuff- And I also worry that when I go to sleep at night I don't actually sleep but another personality takes over (another thing I know isn't true) but I still worry about it ever since I read Fight Club. Alot of things I used to like, like listening to music, I don't like anymore and can't do with out having some anxiety. It seems like when I finally phase something out of my routine/day to day life, and try to bring it back, or a new thing comes up I freak out about this stuff more. I sorta think it could be OCD but then I worry that by thinking that I'm masking a bigger issue or something... There was a time where I wasn't like this at all. I started thinking like this shortly after my mom died (2 years ago, age 13) and then it wasn't that bad, until a family of people started giving me problems and harassing me. That's when it got worse. I just don't know what it is... I'm really really worried that I'm crazy or something because it just got worse from there, not better.

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  • [Old Memory]
    14 years ago

    Glad you are seeking help with all this anxiety. That is pretty much as sane as one can be because you know something is not right. That this kicked in shortly after the sad loss of your mom would cause an ordinary person like me to wonder about grief but that is something I am sure you are talking with your therapist about.

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  • pinkcheerleaderxoxo
    12 years ago

    I've been feeling that way too recently. I start by thinking about things that I shouldn't be worrying myself over. But with me, when I get an idea, or anxiety if you will, in my head it completely takes over my mind and I tear myself apart thinking about it. I'm starting counseling soon because this has been going on for a long time. It stopped for a couple years but its starting again so I think it's time to figure out what's wrong with me. Mine started by something that had happened to me in the past too. I think counseling is probably what's best for both of us. Good luck!

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  • 0000Lz4
    14 years ago

    Hey dude, yeah I'm in a similar place. Sometimes you think so hard and deeply on things that you cant tell which one is the truth anymore. Try getting out of your head more often. Try doodling or video games. And perhaps take a break on reading any philosophical stuff, if you get to much of that you can mess with your mind.

    dont worry as long as you dont become suicidal

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    • Outsider21
      9 years ago

      I agree on the philisophical stuff. I used to be in a slightly similar situation to the OP, but I realized that my problem was spending hours and hours every day contemplating existence, the universe, the ultimate destiny of mankind, etc. all the while smoking massive amounts of weed on a daily basis. It took me a bit to realize that I wasn't actually crazy or anything, just not involved in day to day life much and mainly wrapped up with pondering all sorts of fantastical and incredible things

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  • stone_love
    14 years ago

    It's probably not normal, but don't worry about yourself. You probably have a very active, self-analytical mind. I have some similar problems, but not exactly the same. It could be OCD. A lot of things are actually forms of OCD. I learned about this recently. There's nothing wrong with that, though. I think you should talk about it more with your therapist, and if it's a serious problem there could be meds that would treat it (if you're ok with that sort of thing). Try not to worry about yourself though, there's an answer for this!

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