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I'm just bitter and hopeless. I don't trust people. Don't trust anyone enough to have close friends. People always end up being shitty so I just have a bunch of acquaintances. I won't allow anyone to get too close. My Mom is a manipulative bitch that I can't trust. My Dad killed himself on Fathers day. My ex husband is in prison for molesting a little kid. People disgust me. I feel like I'm giving up on humanity.
I can relate pretty much your way of thinking. I've been through hell most of my life. It is ok to give up on people in general, just don't give up on yoursel. Try not to let bitterness and pessimism consume you and things will eventually get better.
Sorry you've had it rough too. Well isn't giving up on people in general sort of pessimistic? I was pretty mentally overwhelmed yesterday when I wrote the post.. just getting exhausted from people filthy shit lately.. everyone that's commented here seems kind. Thank you for your response.
I'm sorry you had to go through all that and that you feel so bad. I used to feel pretty hopeless myself until I met my SO.
I was always smaller than everyone else and got bullied pretty bad for my height and my dad hated that he had a daughter instead of a son and took it out on me all the time. I then made the stupid mistake of coming out as a lesbian around him and his attitude towards me took an even worse turn. He started calling me slurs and shaming me over it and whenever I found somebody I wanted to be with he would scare them off. When I called him out on it by yelling and swearing at him he hit me which sparked a pretty deep seated fear of him.
Then I got old enough to move away from him and met my SO who saved me from all that and built me back up.
My life wasn't nearly as hard of a time as it sounds like you've gone through and I don't share these things often, but I just wanted to tell you this because I wanted you to know you aren't the only one suffering, and that we all process suffering differently, and that it's perfectly natural to feel the way you do after such immense suffering, and I wanted to say to you that I know it hurts but please don't give up!
All it can take is one moment or one person to cause your life to take a turn for the better and I hope you find that somebody or moment:)
It doesn't matter if your life hasn't been as hard as someone else's, your father had no excuse to treat his own daughter that way. Good on you for trying to keep it in perspective though. The best way to get back at him for hurting you like that is to just be happy
I'm so sorry for everything you've been through. I really wish I could help.
I can relate to how you feel about not trusting anyone or allowing them to get too close, as I'm the same way. Unfortunately, the wrong people can really burn you for making close friendships, and it's really hard to move past that even once you've met very good people. I will say that there are still very good people out there though, it's just that the bad ones unfortunately stand out the most.
Wishing you the best, and hoping things get better for you. If you ever need someone to just vent to, I am here!
Honestly, there's nothing wrong with giving up on humanity. People can be fucked up and horrible and it's not a bad thing to recognize that and to cut such people out of your life. If you genuinely feel better off saying "fuck everyone" then do it, do what's best for you. Nobody's entitled to be in your life, and as long as you're not doing anything to hurt anyone, you're free to regard humanity however you want
All that being said, I'm really sorry about your father. It's hard enough losing someone to suicide, it must be really difficult losing a parent that way
no idea what you mean by wanking..if you're referring to sex I have NONE!! My bf had his prostate removed last year and has suffered from depression and impotence. He's much older than me and I feel like it's aged me tremendously to be with him and handle all this fucking bullshit...fucking random people spreads disease and unwanted pregnancies... which is exactly why the world is fucked... but people hate hearing the truth..it's only going to get worse since they're taking away abortion rights. Now all these unwanted hepititus babies are gonna be unloved, unsupervised, hurt, angry and maybe even homicidal in the next 12-18 years. yay!!
Well firstly, I agree with you. Everything is fucked. But you can’t enjoy our sick sad world unless you are in the proper mind State.
I am suggesting that you have sex with yourself. Make yourself comfortable in a warm bath. Play with your clitoris; feel happy about your vagina; think about a better life; think about fulfillment; be sensual; laugh at people who curse the consequences of their own stupidity (they are darwinating themselves). Live beneath your own means.
There are ways out of your current situation. I don’t know what they are. In the future you can work at becoming the person that you truly are inside yourself. But the first thing your must do is cum without a partner. Cha.
Dude I hope you're trolling wtf 😂. You need to become 1weirdguy2.0 because that was weird even for my standards.
No, I am being serious but light hearted bcuz I think light heartedness would work in her favor.
Idea 2.0 is to go nude. That’s what I do. Nude beaches cleanse the mind. (Seriously they do.)
Yes! There is a nude beach here in town that I've been to. Forgot about that. I just really hate seeing old people nude. They should have age restrictions there. Last time it was a bunch of college students. There was a couple with their daughter which I thought was weird..5 year old kid fine...12 year old kid fucking weird!!
Really? You seem to not think so. According to you, wanking is the solution. I'd like an explanation.
I think it's pretty clear what "all problems" is supposed to mean, so I don't think there's any rephrasing that needs to be done.
Once again, I'd like to know how wanking fixes all problems. You still aren't answering the question....
I don't really think that answers the question...
Also, what is with your weird fascination with wanking? I've seen multiple comments you've made and they all mention it. As a matter of fact, your only advice is "just wank, bro".
but people going through a shitty moment in their lives should try to maybe push trough and see what the next day brings instead of ending it all over one bad experience or moment.. there are moments of joy and excitement to be experienced as well...just seems more and more difficult to trust other people.. the older I get, the creepier people seems to be. They can't find joy in the simple things. I'm so sick of finding out that people are fucking swingers or how many serial killers there are, or that the number one thing go to the ER for is putting shit up their assholes. It really takes a toll on me and makes me feel naive for assuming that most people have good hearts.
I agree with you 100%.I don't always agree with suicide unless there is no way of getting better for the victim. I spoke with a nurse that said she used to be against it. She said her job is to help people recover without pain...when there is no real recovery and someone is dealing with a terminal illness, a pain free way out should be given. We do it to our pets. We love our pets so much and when we know they're on their last days and suffering, we want them to go pain free... anyhow. I'm glad my Dad is at true rest now. I really envy people with great families...
Thank you for being kind with your response. I appreciate that. It's hard not to totally snap. I can really empathize with people that snap and go on killing sprees. What really bothers me is that people that commit suicide are shamed and ridiculed. They're labeled as "weak". Most people are terrified of death and become religious, go to great measures to be healthy and try to live as long as possible. I feel that people that commit suicide are stronger than most. It's actually difficult to do and most people fail the first few times. They're just tired of suffering. He said it hurt to be alive. It physically hurt. He was a long time alcoholic and drug addict and was all alone. I think he felt a lot of guilt for abandoning me and my sister and for beating up his 80 year old Dad and breaking his arm. My Grandpa had a restraining order on him when my Grandpa died so he couldn't even see him.
Life can get better pretty quickly tho. I had all that shit going on with drugs and withdrawals I thought id die from withdrawals if my dealer was out. Those were dark times but life just seemed to turn on a dime for some reason. I think if you meet a good man it will help Id probably be dead if it wasnt for my wife.
I think people shame victims of suicide because they don't want to be seen as even remotely approving of or condoning suicide, but it's such a shitty thing to do to that person's memory. Anyone who says that a person who commits suicide is weak or selfish are weak and selfish themselves because they're only looking at how they were impacted by the suicide. They think of the pain they'll feel without that person in their life, but they rarely stop to consider the pain their loved one was feeling that was so intense they felt it was worth opting out of life than trying to continue