Everything has to be right?

For some reason, when I really like or enjoy something, I try to stay away from it. I don't know why I do it, but here are some examples.

I will go buy new clothes that fit well and I imagine wearing them. I will take them home, take the tags off, and hang them up. I will wait weeks before wearing them.

If I go to the theater and see a great movie, I make a note to buy it. So I will buy it, take it out of the wrapping, put it in the dvd center, and not watch it. I will map out in my head when a great time to watch it will be, then forget about it.

If someone wants to watch the dvd and I haven't preplanned it or my house or belongings don't feel 'just right' I will not let them play it because I don't feel like I will be able to give it my full attention and enjoy it.

I will buy food and prepare it for the refrigerator. I think of times when to eat it and enjoy it without overindulging. Then when the time comes, I get anxiety about it and don't want to enjoy it. I usually end up throwing out 1/2 of the food at the end of the week.

If I buy packaged lunch meat, once I open it and eat a sandwich, I won't eat any more of it. For some reason I think it is bad or soured so I get scared to eat it. Same thing with milk, if it is on the due date or after, I will pour it out. If the mayo has been out for more than 10 minutes, it is bad and needs to be thrown out.

If there is only one towel that is clean and I need two, I will just wait and take a shower the next day once two towels are ready.

If I walk by the printer at work and someone threw the papers on the desk I get angry. I have tried to walk away and go to lunch trying to avoid it. However I cannot stop thinking about it and will usially go back in to pick them up to put them back in the tray. I feel relieved and am then able to go to lunch with no worry.

Is this normal? Any advice?