Empty thoughts

If your psychiatrist cannot help you, maybe seek out a second opinion, or find a psychologist to talk to instead.

Your symptoms, if it's anything like my case, are caused by a lot of introspection and not very much social interaction. You start to come to realizations about yourself and about the world that most people don't even consider, because they are wrapped up with everyone and everything else.

But maybe you're right. Or maybe they're right. Who knows. I think all you can do is step back, use your newfound ability to see things for what they are instead of what you want them to be or think they should be and force yourself to be a part of the world again instead of always living inside your head.

Then, you'll be able to look at things objectively, you'll be able to see where you might have gone wrong in your own mind, or where you have made yourself better in some ways that other, more social people may never reach.

You're too close to yourself to be able to look at the whole picture. Now that you know everything is normal and nothing is special or nothing stands out, try to find the beauty in it. Realize that in a world of normalcy, even the smallest change can stand out in a big way.

You can be something just by willing it. You can turn the nothingness you feel into useful emotions and feelings that you can analyze to continue to better yourself.

The fact that you feel the way you do does not mean there is anything wrong with you, but that you ARE different, you ARE special, you ARE greater than nothing, because you are not caught up in that normalcy any longer. Now you can move past it and be something truly extraordinary and beyond the norm.

You're sad, and you're lonely. Those are strong feelings. Even if it hurts, those are beautiful feelings because you feel them at all. You cannot be so sad without having experienced happiness, and you can't be so lonely without having experienced love and social interaction.

Everything you do, even what you're feeling now, makes you different, makes you stand out, makes you something more than what you are feeling.

I'm the EXACT same way. Do you have an anger problem, too? If so, you and I are like twins. I used to believe in God so strongly and I used to always think that the Bible was right about everything, but now that I've developed enough backbone to question the Bible and God's existence, I feel like nothing can be proven 100%%. Therefore, I too end up jumping to the conclusion that everything is ultimately meaningless. As a result, I feel emotionless, lonely and empty. I don't know how to help you overcome your problem, because I can't seem to overcome it in myself, yet. I am trying, though, so I still have hope. Since you don't want to "just not exist anymore," I'd say you still have hope as well. Just hang in there and know that other people out there (like myself) are going through the same thing you are. One thing I DO believe is that if there is a God (and I still want to believe there is), then feeling true, genuine love is the closest possible parallel to feeling God himself. Maybe you just need to develop a very strong relationship with someone who can help rebuild your faith. Such a relationship is what I hope to find for myself, as I sit here single and suffering on a daily basis. Haha.

Fall in love...that's what got me out of that stage of my life.

There's got to be someone who will show you something different. That everyone is not the same; not all the dreamer's have woken up forever. You don't have to search for meaning in everything; sometimes it's fun just to "improvize", make fun out of life! Find a fun, loving, different person and just play, like when you were a kid, and you believed in playtime, snacktime, and dreaded naptime, because kid's are always dreaming, look at the games they play, listen to the words they say! REACH YOUR INNER CHILD! haha you will learn to love life and believe again. I love you! :) I hope this helps.

You are really looking at life bass ackwards.

So far as we can tell, the universe is at least 15 billions years old. It will go on at least another 15 billion years.

In all the universe, we have never found one hint of evidence that life of any kind exists anywhere else but on Earth. We think it's possible, but with all our efforts, we have so far found no evidence.

The Earth is only about 4.5 billion years old. It will most likely not last beyond another 5 billion years.

In all the time it's been around, Humans, that is people who think like you and me, have only been around for about 200,000 years, and the way things are going this could change any day.

You get to be here, alive and aware, 100 years at best.

If you can't get your head around the time spans, just look around. Look at all of the rocks, water and other things that are not and will never be alive.

In fact, only about 0.000000017%% of the Earth is alive. That includes all plant and animal life on our planet right now. Of that, only 0.04%% is us, people.

Now, can you honestly say you don%%u2019t feel in the least bit fortunate? You really prefer to be just another rock?

Enjoy what you%%u2019ve got while you can. It will all be over before you know it. Don%%u2019t let your final thoughts be regret for wasting the only life you will ever get.

I know this may not be the place to say this but I couldn't help thinking it when I came across your story. I'm a Christian and I believe that God made everyone of us with a desire to be with him in our hearts. I also believe that when we feel empty, that this is him prompting us to look for him. Often we try and fill that emptiness with other people, movies, food, tv, books, alcohol, drugs, anything but I believe that the only way to feel whole is to start to get to know him through his word and his son Jesus. I've often felt how you have, especially after my father passed away, and I've found that just picking up a bible and reading some of the New Testement really helps me to feel whole again. It's your choice ultimately, but I think it would really help you.

If your story is indeed true, maybe you need a friend or two to show you and help you understand that you really can live a happier life.

I know exactly how you feel. I feel like I live everyday for nothing. But i don't want to die. I call it limbo.
I do agree with bookoo995 tho, I think lonliness does a lot to your mental state.

I think there is a certain amount of truth to everything you have said, but it is only partially true, and you are filtering out a whole lot of the rest of what life offers.

So in the end your quality of life really sucks. You could go see another shrink, or you may want to try a cognitive psychologist.

Well escape your life, travel, buy a one way ticket some place. I know how you feel, and I too have not mustered the courage to really do something exciting, but people do. Back pack the world,just jump into life. That is the real cure to your blues. No pill can make up for a lack of adventure, just like if you are fat, you have to diet and exercise to lose weight. Do something you have always wanted to do, people regret missed opportunities,chances not taken. We all know regret sucks, like a bunch of leaches on your back, and no one likes leaches, save for micro surgeons and dark age doctors.

Yeah, depression, talk to someone, the sooner the better!

yeah basically suicidal almost, know what u mean- b en ice to have money though.

your not alone, plenty more ppl like that....go out with your friends...spend time with ppl who you love and youll fell better

How you feel isn't your fault. From your story, you sound like you might have depression. The fact that you went to a psychiatrist and they didn't consider that would make me think the guy you went to see was pretty shit. Have you considered tryin another person? tbh though, therapy doesn't really help everyone, I went during a bad time a couple of years back and it didn't do anything for me, so just cos that didn't work out for you doesn't mean you should give up hope of anythin helping. See your doctor, tell them how you feel and see if they can do anything.
Also, is there anything you could do right now to break with your usual pattern(ie. get a new job, meet new people, go on holiday)?

I urge you to read the Satanic Bible. It sounds like your mind wants more answers. Maybe it will point you in the right direction. It never hurts to gain knowledge. Best of luck!

What you say is right: everything is meaningless. And that we all are given/have a limited number of days to live, we would do right by enjoying the toil of our hands, eat and drink and be happy. At the same time, being less wicked and more good, doing as we would like others to do unto us.

No wonder. I sometimes feel that this world is a gamble. You can't be perfect and expect it to love you. Give a little and get a little, or else get depressed. No wonder the monks who choose to live apart from this world. We're all in the same boat.