Emotionally traumatized, i feel empty inside?
When I was a child my parents divorced and things took a turn for the worst. My mother was mentally Ill and was the main person who raised me. She kept my father out of my life and traumatized me with emotional and mental abuse for many years, up until I was the age of 15-16 years old until i moved away from her.
Lately I have been feeling very empty and emotionally drained. I have developed multiple anxiety disorders and a dissasociative disorder (I'm always off I'm my own world and can never really come back to reality, it feels horrible!). Some nights I can't even fall asleep.
I have never been to a psychiatrist or anything of the sort. I try to think positive and see all of the good things in my life, but the only thing that consumes me are my negative/ distorted/ irrational thoughts. Is it normal to feel this way?
Is there any hope left for me? Any books that you would recommend I should read?
Please leave a comment, it would be greatly appreciated! Thanks for taking the time to read this. Sincerely, John