Drinking and thinking... does alcohol help you 'see' things more clearly?
2 double measures of port wine, alone in my flat.
I am nearly 30, single, childless and a virgin. I used my grandmother's inheritance money to move into a shoebox in the red light distict on the outskirts of a city where I don't have any friends. I work in the Western equivalent if a sweatshop in the city centre on a zero-hours contract. Sometimes my commute between clients and subway stations requires me to walk 5 miles a day with a heavy messenger bag. I can't afford a car. To reward myself for my hard work today I bought fermented cabbage in a plastic box with real sausages, instead of fermented cabbage in a tin can with hotdogs.
I am drinking and crying. Am I crying because the alcohol is making me emotional, or because it's bringing me out of denial? Does alcohol help you to see things more clearly? I don't even know if this is a serious question anymore...