Dressing and wetting in womens clothing

I am a male crossdresser that loves to wear multiple layers of panties, pantyhose, slips, dresses, etc. I love dressing complete with wig, makeup, heels, jewelry, and I even shave my legs and paint my toe and finger nails with nail polish. I love to drink until my bladder is bursting and just soaking my layers of undergarments as I love the feeling of being wet and masterbating in the urine saturated garments. I am married and my wife is ok with me dressing as long as I do it in privacy. I love it when she gets dressed up in pantyhose and nice silky slip or dress or nightgown and straddles over me and pees all over me. I love being on my back and dominated by her. She will force her pantyhose coverd crotch in my face as she pleasures my genitals bringing me to orgasm as she is peeing on me. AM I a bad person? I know this is not normal but I am not hurting anybody, right? I have such a hard time accepting this part of me but I know as much as I wish I wasnt like this, I still love dressing and wetting and being wet. I sometimes love to wear my pantyhose, panties and slips under my street clothing when I go somewhere like a department store and shop with confidence noone can see what I am wearing. The feeling of the soft silky materials on my body makes feel so sensual and I cant but help getting excited. Please, refrain from nasty comments, i have heard enough. If you wish to make dorogatory comments, please go somewhere else. Thanks