Don’t mind me
Today I’ve decided that I probably don’t deserve anything in this world. I’m not trying to seek attention... I’m mostly posting this because I just need to vent and this anonymous site does me a little justice. I’m also scheduling to see a therapist in due time hopefully that will help. I’ve fucked up so much in such a short amount of time that when I think about anything, I feel nothing but angst. I’m a piece of shit. I’ve caused my mother so much dissatisfaction and disappointment I can hardly bare it. I’m a leech, I suck the life and love out of anything around me because I’m just that horrible of a person. I deserve nothing. I’m not suicidal at this point I’ve just hit a flatline, I’m gonna try to go on some walks this week. I need therapy. I need to escape this city I live in, but everything I do traps me here. I need to find myself. Recovery is a long process and I haven’t even started.