Does this seem normal?
Almost a year ago I thought a guy that I work with was hot, and I only wanted sex. I told him that I was in love with him and after we fucked once I never really talked to him and pretty much avoided him. The reason why I didn't want to keep fucking him was because it wasn't really sex at first. He randomly pulled over because he saw me outside of my place walking. After I let him inside my place he threated to call the police for something I did. He blacked mailed me for sex but I wasn't ready and told him to wait like 10 minutes until I feel ready for sex. He forced me against the wall and took my pants off and raped me. I passed out and woke up feeling really horny. I kept following him and asking for more sex. He said yes and we kept fucking.
Since I was forced I didn't really talk to him anymore and slept with other guys. Once he found out that I was sleeping with other guys he got so angry with me and told me not to cheat on him. Also the 2nd time he got mad at me for cheating he showed up at my home and forced me on the ground and was hitting me. I tried to get on top because I didn't want to get beat up. He knocked me out and undressed me and started having sex. The reason why I know this happened is because I woke up and his dick was in me. then he choked me until I passed out. Another story about him is while I was in Walmart I thought I would pretend to break up. He pretty much beat me up in Walmart and grabbed a knife out of his pocket and swing it at my neck. Then he cut his arm and said "This is how I feel about you". also told me that the only way I can break up with him, is if we could still fuck. A few weeks pass and while I was at work my break started. A guy that I work with said "Don't in near the bathroom because you will see something ugly" I really needed to take a piss but I saw my boyfriend hanging by his fucking neck! A different co worker said that the suicidal note read that his girlfriend broke up with him. After my boss cut him down I pretty much told that I want him back and love him.
The last time I saw my boyfriend at work he almost started crying and asked me for advice. After giving him advice and hugging him I went to my seat for a meeting.
I know this is a abusive relationship but would if he kills himself? A few days ago my co workers told me that noticed my boyfriend had a ring to small to fit his fingers. He said "The ring is small enough to fit on my fingers". I have no idea if its true that he has a ring and wants to marry me. I'm still young and if this relationship is goes back to being abusive then I might move far away after secretly job hunting. No one will know where I am.