Does this make me sexist?

Okay... I have a confession to make.

To start off, I consider myself as quite an open-minded person. I'm willing to try out new things and have new experiences of all kinds. I'm not afraid to go on a whim if I have to. However, when it comes to my romantic/social life, I'm REALLY exclusive. For instance, I only want male lovers, male friends, male associates, male coworkers, and everything else male. I guess you can say I'm on the extreme end of the spectrum. For some reason I feel very happy being around other guys. It's like the kind of happiness when you win the lottery, or like, if you were high on drugs.

Now, let's analyze this a bit. Growing up I was deprived of male connections. I didn't have any brothers nor was my father there enough for me when I was a little boy. On top of that, I hardly had any male friends in school that I could bond with, which was kinda sad to say the least. Perhaps this is the underlining reason for my preference for male company... to fill this empty void in my heart. Plus males are sexy creatures. And yes, I so happen to have a high sex drive as well. And admittedly, I think the high sex drive only further fuels the want for male connections.

Ugh, I feel so bad for confessing this. But I can't help how I feel, ya know? It just... makes me come across as utterly sexist when that surely isn't the case. I just really, really love men. In fact, I love men so much I'm willing to live in an all-male world.